A FOOL

(Lesson learned)

“Loving someone who doesn’t love you back, is the most painful feeling you could ever feel in the GAME of LOVE”

Who is the one to blame? Is it me, my heart or him? I’ve been fooled for the 6^th time! What the heck?! I am a certified FOOL! I’m just a girl, a human who can easily fall for someone who is kind, loving and caring. He treated me just the way I wanted to be and I thought it’s the “Real Thing” but it seems it is just a dream. I believe on his lies or I just misunderstood it. I thought he’s the one I’ve been waiting for but he’s one of the playful guys around.

I do regret for searching him. But I guess another lesson learned. “Don’t get into a situation when you knew at the first place, you will only fall into pieces”

And I’ve also got three good advices on how to let go:

1. Be beautiful/handsome, being gorgeous is the best revenge.

2. Act like you have amnesia when you see him/her. It will be hard if you keep on thinking of him/her.

3. Focus yourself on your STUDY. Your mom and dad will be happy for it. Love has done something good to you.

Everything that happens to our life has a purpose, whenever it was good or bad it helps us to grow and to become a good person in the future. Life is very cruel you have to be prepared for everything that may occur on your way. And always have faith on him. TRUST GOD.

Every one of us may experience failure in LOVE. But don’t give up maybe it’s just not the right time and the right guy or girl for you. We always have the right time, and the right person just wait for your turn because god has a good plan for you. If we are in heartaches right now, it is he’s way to make us stronger when we meet our right one. J

By: Elaine Morales

i can't sleep

It’s already 12:29am, but I’m still awake. Maybe it is because I drink too much of coffee. Nothing to do but to stare with my laptop! I am now listening to Mariah Carey’s songs. Listening to these kind of music, helps my mind to relax and to make me sleepy.

Hmm... Now I’m losing my thoughts. It was hard to have a sleepless night; it makes my headache in the morning. I am trying to write a poem right now but no thoughts and emotions tumbling down inside my head and into my heart. I don’t know why? That’s why I’m only typing down all the things that I want to say since all of the people here are now sleeping and there’s no one to talk to.

By the way my class just already started last Monday, I will be busy these coming weeks so, I don’t have enough time to write some poems for these coming days. I have to priority my studies.

I hope you’ll understand specially those people who always viewing my blog and reading my poems. I know this blog has only one follower but I know there are people who is viewing and reading it and always waiting for my new creations. Thank you for those people loving my simple kind of blog I know it’s a bit boring to read but I don’t care =). You know who you are; I really do appreciate for always reading my poems. Thank you for the positive feedbacks you gave. I hope many people could appreciate my work like you did. Thank you!

I don’t want to be famous using this blog, but I just want to know the comments of the others if my work is good or bad. So I can improve it and make more kind of poems. That is my intention. And also help people who need some advice, in any aspects or they just want to be inspired by my poems.

Whoa! I didn’t notice the time. It’s already 1:28am. I guess I have to go to sleep now.

Good night earth!

=)

PAIN

listening to music helps me a lot to relax my mind.

writing my thoughts, helps me to express my feelings.

but, everytime i think of you. i can't help but cry.

i don't know how big the hole that you made inside my heart

to burden me in this kind of pain.

i am shouting and crying through this paper and pen.

i don't know if i can handle this anymore..

all i want is to be love and to love..

why should i be like this..

hurting myself..

grief..

tamed..

UNDONE

Waiting

how long i will be like this?

pretending that i am alright

even though i'm not.

how can i free myself

from loving someone

who doesn't love me.

i guess no one knows,

i guess time could only tell,

and i guess it would end

untill i find someone there,

waiting for me to come along..

By: Elaine Morales

Now that you are gone

As I close my eyes,

Your face is the only thing I see.

In the dark,

I can see your shadow beside me.

As I walk alone,

I can feel your hand holding into mine.

My heart feels the warmth of your love,

I can feel you everywhere.

You totally complete me,

Even though I know you’re not here.

Your love is all I need,

You are the only one I want to live with.

But now that you are gone,

I couldn’t accept that I need to live without you,

Co’z you were taken away from me.

All I can feel is the tear running down into face.

And the cold breeze saying that you’re not coming back.

By: Elaine Morales

How can I Stop the Rain

How can I stop the rain?

How can I stop my tears from falling?

When we first met,

it was a sunny day

But then you left me

my cloud turns to gray.

All my dreams were shattered

with tears,

All of our memories become

the shadow of fears,

Now I am all alone

so long and done.

Sitting on the window,

watching the rain drops falls

With my tears

waiting until my teardrops fall

By: Elaine Morales

Alone =(

sometimes, being alone is all i wanted.

but , as time goes by, i feel this feeling that

i needed someone to be there on my side,

i started searching someone

i could talk to , he will listen to me,

i could cry on his shoulder.

but then, everytime i search that someon ,

it makes all things difficult for me.

everyday i can feel the loneliness

inside me.

i thought ican live by myself, without the love

and the feeling of being loved.

i was wrong ..

the feeling was getting strong

everyday,

im not desperate to have one.

i just wanted to feel special to someone

i know who will never leave me ALONE

once he get inside my world full of

myseries and grief.

i am hoping i could meet him soon ..

unquote.

L.O.V.E ???

Hey , do you believe in destiny? In true love? First love?
What a world. It has a lot of mysterious things. I wonder when can I feel the thing they called LOVE.
I love watching Korea novellas because through their dramas I can feel that thing. But I don’t know if it is the real feeling of love when it’s real. I am hoping that someday I could feel that.

I don’t know why I have this feeling right now. I just can’t help it, so I just write down my thoughts.
Me, myself I don’t even understand why I should feel like this. I’m being so emotional, seeking some love. A love that can be felt with someone, a someone that can make you happy, care for you, will accept for what you are and what you have. Is that possible that in reality there is a someone like that?
Maybe I’m just too young to feel that. Is it too young a 17 years old girl feeling like this? Or is it a part of growing up? Being a teenager? Waahh …
I just want to feel the LOVE. But am I ready to feel that? Am I ready for the things that might happen along that situation? Hmmm .. I guess I don’t even know.
Maybe this feeling is natural on a girl nearly turning into a lady. Or maybe I’ve watched too much Korean drama.

I always think of myself hanging with someone I can be myself and it doesn’t matter how loud I laugh or how talkative I am. Someone who can love me in who I am and what I am. I am hoping for that someone to come along, at the right time. I know god have plans for me, so he don’t rush the time to arrive that someone I am hoping for, someone I don’t know. But when the time comes, the time we will meet, I know we will just feel that we knew each other long before that time.
I know that it is not easy to get into a relationship. You must be responsible and balance you time. You love him/her but you must love yourself first.

Haay.. this must be the effect of the suspending the class. (Laugh) 1 week suspension because of the AH1N1. That virus affect all of the universities. I wish this world will conquer these kind of disease.

think positive !

Whoa . Its summer but it is raining. Strange.

But they say that it is good for us, since the

a H1N1 influenza virus is here in our country.

AH1N1 influenza virus is acquired thru air. Ecologists

say that the best way to clean the air is by rain.

We Filipinos wonder "why rain in summer?".

Now you know.

Elaine